Beach Evening

Spending some time down at Coogee Beach (Sydney, Australia)  :)

Because the weather was hot yesterday,
it meant that the wind wasn't cold during the evening,
and it was very pleasant, just lying on the sand until it was dark.

(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

The Red Eye

(D)    Drug Use

The Red Eye

So, every now and then, whenever I get sick or very stressed,

because I think I might even have the measles at the moment,

I have no idea how, but anyway,

my right eye gets very red.

This is a recurring affliction that has come from an incident,

that took place when I was not even a few weeks old.

My parents needed to go out, 

but they didn't want to take me with them,

I am first born, so I was the only child at the time.

So, I was in my bed, lying on my back,

it may have even been a drawer from a cupboard,

as my parents had little in the early days,

Then my father injected heroin,
into the left side of my neck,

so that I would be paralysed and not able to cry,

and hence alert anyone that I was home alone.

I was then rolled onto my left side,
so that I was facing away from the window of the bedroom.

Then my mother placed a bath mat or something similar,

over me, so that no-one could see me from the window,

if they should happen to come over.

The bath mat had dirt in it,

and some fell into my right eye.

The dirt must have also had some germs on it,

as they have been in the corner of my eye ever since,

and developed into conjunctivitis, 

when we moved to Darwin, Australia, when I was a teenager,

because of the tropical conditions.

In my 30's, 

this developed into the "red eye" situation that you can see above.

So ....... they left me alone in the house,

my mother coming back later with the groceries.

As to my parents abusing me with illegal drugs (and other things),

this occurred frequently from when I was in the womb, 

until I was 6 years old, nearly 7,

when I stood up to them, 

and it all ended suddenly.

I don't remember going through withdrawal.

But, I have never used illegal drugs myself,

and have never had the urge to.

I would put this down to my physiology,

which is strong chemically. 

:)

(c) Katherine Stuart 2016 

Fake Blog Posts ??

So while I was out at the AACTA Awards - Red Carpet on Wed,
there are  2   large responses to my blog, and mostly from Russia.

Seeing as I wasn't here,
and did not put any entries up,
I would hope that no-one has put any fake entries up on my blog while I was away.
I live in a share-house, so I have no control over anyone getting into my computer
while I'm out, as I can't carry it around with me all the time.

If any fake blog posts have been put up on my site,
(as I can't see them at this end),
I do not associate myself with them,
and do not condone that this is happening.

So, to all those who follow my blog,
please be aware,
that if it doesn't quite sound like something that I would say,
then it may not be from me.

Kind Regards.
Katherine


(c) Katherine Stuart 2016


 

6th annual AACTA Awards - Red Carpet

The 6th annual AACTA Awards,
culminated on Wed 7 Dec 2016,
at The Star Event Centre (Casino)
in Sydney, Australia.

These awards are held,
to celebrate the year's achievements
in Australian Cinema and Television.

Celebrities arriving,
included Michael Caton, below,
being interviewed,
with his back to my camera.

And "Mel Gibson", talking to Edwina Bartholomew, a presenter for Channel 7 (Australia).

There were many other celebrities arriving while I was there, including,

Paul Hogan,
Geoffrey Rush,
Cosentino,
Sacha Baron Cohen,
Isla Fisher,
Boy George,
Josh Thomas, and,
Bonnie Sveen.

Here's the paparazzi view  :)

I think the crowd watching on,
was having just as much
a good time,
as the celebrities !!

But please,
sightseeing buses,
don't block the view !!

And here's to all those
hard working technicians
behind the scenes
bringing the event to life.

These are the various
television station's
mobile communication set-ups.

Congratulations on a
successful AACTA Awards event  :)





Video  -  Conversation at the AACTA Awards 2016 - Red Carpet

(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Dochas Books Film

Coogee Pavilion

This week, I had drinks with a friend,
at Coogee Pavilion.

This is a very popular hangout
at Coogee Beach (Sydney, Australia)
for tourists and others,
and has a very interesting interior,
which is reminiscent of
the English cruise holiday
of the early 1900's,
with games that can be played,
such as large scrabble,
chess on a wall,
ping-pong etc.

There are numerous bars,
coffee takeaway,
gelato,
and a seafood grill.

This window seat,
has a view to the beach.

Yoshimi and I,
hanging out.


















(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

The Tattoo

(V)    Violence

The Tattoo

Mel,

(and anyone else who is interested)

So, if Bruce is taking his instruction from my father,

then who is my father taking instruction from ?

I would say that would have to be my mother.
(Though, I seriously doubt my biological connection to her, also)

As her favourite catch-cry, as I remember from my childhood, was,

"Ross !! Do something about that girl !!", 

meaning me.

And I don't think things have changed just because they are divorced.

Is my father whipped ?  Yes, of course, he is whipped !!

And is my mother capable of her own misdeeds ?

Of course, she is.

Over the last few years,

I have come to notice quite a few scars on my body,

particularly on my forearms.

As time goes on, they are becoming more obvious.

One in particular, is of interest,

featured above.

It's faint,

but I think it's a word,

surrounded by an oval.

It's in cursive,

and it would seem that the first letter is an  M.

And the following letters,

though a little indistinct,

would fit with the word,

"Mary".

Has my mother engraved her name on my left forearm,

(upper side) ?

The whole thing is quite large,

being about  6" (15cm) long.

And how would it have been done ?

It looks like a burn.

I think it was done with a laser.

And I think I was burnt and cut,

so that the scar would be permanent.

And it was done before I was  7  years old.

It's only a matter of time,

before this scar, and all the others,

become more obvious,

maybe with the help of some innovative technology.

I'm looking forward to that day !!

............

"Mel" refers to Mel Gibson,

the actor/director/producer/screenwriter/television executive

"Bruce" refers to Bruce Davey,

Mel's business partner

"my father" refers to Ross Keith Pengilley

"my mother" refers to Mary Sarah (Maria Serafina) Caichiolo

(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

The Girl on the Beach

(D)    Drug Use

(S)    Sex Scene

(V)    Violence

The Girl on the Beach

So Mel,

(and anyone else who is interested)

I've tried to put all the pieces together of this puzzle,

of what really happened to the girl on the beach,

and this is my understanding  -

When you were going to NIDA in Sydney in the 1970's,

you were sharing a house at Coogee with  3  other guys,

and you were also going out with Debra Lawrence,

who was in the same year as you at NIDA.

On your birthday,

you all had a party at your house to celebrate it.

The party was underway during the evening,

when you overheard Debra talking to her sister

(forgive me if I'm getting this wrong),

and you thought you heard Debra say to her sister,

that she was pregnant, and that it was to Bruce.

Well, of course, you went into a tailspin.

There was a massive argument between you and Debra,

you latched onto her sister out of revenge,

and you, Debra's sister and Bruce 

headed to the beach with a pizza.

By this time, it was dark.

Finding a secluded part of Coogee Beach,

the three of you had a private party.

And yes, the three of you were using drugs,

which was probably the case 

at the party at the house as well.

And you had revenge sex with Debra's sister.

But, while the two of you weren't watching,

Bruce deliberately put an overdose of drugs

on one of the pieces of pizza,

and later, when the two of you had finished,

he gave her that piece.

Because of this, she went into cardiac arrest,

and "died" in front of you.

She was taken to the hospital,

but pronounced dead.

So, another "girlfriend" had died supposedly

as a consequence of your actions.

This scenario is so similar to that in my blog entry,

"Life and Death",

that I have to suppose that Bruce 

had taken his instruction from my father.

But, what you didn't realise, Mel,

is that it was Debra's sister that you heard

saying that she was pregnant to Bruce, 

that Bruce manipulated you 

into coming to the beach with him and her,

and that Bruce manipulated you into thinking,

that she died because you had sex with her. 

And all because, 

he didn't want to take responsibility for raising the baby............

............

"Mel" refers to Mel Gibson,

the actor/director/producer/screenwriter/television executive

"Bruce" refers to Bruce Davey,

Mel's business partner.

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Life and Death

(M)    Medical Procedures

                                                             (V)    Violence

Life and Death

(For anyone who is interested)

Mel,

did you spend most of your life, believing that I was dead,

and that you caused it ?

Because that's not the truth............

It has been beyond my control,

that my father  -  

Is he really my father ? 

Because I have serious doubts concerning the biological connection  -  

is a person who fancies himself as a surgeon,

though he has only attained a PhD in Zoology.

By maintaining his links with Universities,

he has been conducting illegal medical procedures

on various subjects,

including myself as a child.

On one such occasion,

when I was  6  years old,

things had come to a head,

and he had laid me out on the operating table,

against my will.

He ordered Mel,

who was  12  years old, 

to stand by the oxygen machine,

which was positioned behind my head,

and work it when instructed.

But, Mel,

you didn't know............

He had previously nicked a tube on the apparatus,

on purpose,

creating an air leak.

Robyn was ordered

to assist my father in the "operation".

She was also  12  years old.

So, my father proceeded to conduct this operation on me,

and things were underway,

when the oxygen machine failed, not delivering the oxygen to me,

so that I suffocated,

and went into cardiac arrest,

passing into clinical death.

My father fake yelled at you, Mel,

blaming you for the failure.

Robyn quickly took your hand,

as instructed by my father beforehand,

and made you go with her

away, out of earshot,

to a designated spot,

and reinforced to you,

as instructed by my father beforehand,

that you had been the cause of my death.

That was the last time I saw you, Mel.

But, what you also didn't know,

was that my father frantically revived me after you had left,

and brought me back to life.

In this way,

my father manipulated you, Mel.

He made you doubt that you are a capable person,

and because of your supposed ineptitude, your girlfriend was dead.

As you can see,

I'm alive and well,

and my father is no longer able to put me in that position.

............

"Mel" refers to Mel Gibson, 

the actor/director/producer/screenwriter/television executive.

"Robyn" refers to Robyn Moore, Mel's ex-wife. 

"my father" refers to Ross Keith Pengilley.

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Super Moon - 14 Nov 2016

Last night, I was out with the crowds at Coogee Beach (Sydney, Australia),
watching the Super Moon rise over the sea.

I was expecting to see a noticeably larger moon,
but it was only slightly larger than normal,
although it was much brighter than normal.
And at times, there was a yellowish hue surrounding it.

I have to say that the full moon rising over the sea, is very romantic,
and one couple was taking full advantage, having a kiss on the promenade.


(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

London Calling........

So Mel,
(and anyone else who is interested),

When I was staying with my father (2008 - 2015)
at his house in Darwin, (Northern Territory, Australia),
I observed a great deal about him.

And some interesting things came to light.

I was brought up to believe,
that he was one of three children,
born to a shearer and his wife,
at Scone, New South Wales, Australia,
the family later living at St George, Queensland, Australia,
where he grew up.

But, when I was observing his behaviour,
I came to realise, that he had been through the London Blitz.

Because he is still living in that moment of time,
when his world collapsed.

He said to me, that he had come from a wealthy family.
But, if you were to ask him, he would probably deny it.

Having put the pieces together,
this is what I think happened.

He was nearly 3 years old,
and eagerly awaiting Christmas,
and his birthday party, which was a week after,
with his little sister, who was 6 months old.

But just before Christmas, one evening,
his mother was playing on the piano,
and there was a knock at the front door.

There was an urgent conversation,
and she had to go,
hurrying out to the waiting motorcar.
My father went to the window,
and watched it leave.

Not so long after, in the evening,
my father was in his bed,
with the Chinese nanny sitting nearby,
at a table next to the window.
This was in London in the Blitz,
so the windows were all covered with black curtains.

All of a sudden,
a bomb exploded outside the window,
blowing it in and killing the nanny.
My father may have been thrown from his bed,
and could have received a head injury at this point.

This was during a particularly heavy bombing raid,
such that the streetscape that had existed previously, was obliterated.
In the morning,
all that was left of my father's world,
was a ruined shell of a house, himself, his sister, and the dead nanny.

His mother never came back for him and his sister.
(She may have tried, but we don't know)
They stayed in the house like this for maybe 3 weeks,
until someone found them
and took them to a welfare point.

I think they stayed there for a couple of months,
and then they were shipped to Australia as war orphans,
believing that their family was dead.

So, was their mother dead ?

I did a little bit of research on the internet,
and I found some things that resonated with me.

That,
the house that my father and his sister lived in,
was part of the American Embassy in London.
That,
their parents may have had the surname,  "Yull-Stuart".
My apologies to this family if this is not the case,
but I suppose only a DNA test would confirm that.
That,
my grandfather, may have been Captain William Yull-Stuart,
who was killed in a bombing raid, while helping the communist leader,
Tito, in Yugoslavia during WWII,
and who was involved in special operations.
My father followed in these footsteps.

Apparently, the man who may have been my great-grandfather,
was married to a Hungarian Baroness.

I would like to make clear,
that I have no political persuasions,
and am not interested in "The Spy Game".

As, I'm not in a position to do this at present,
I would welcome anyone's interest in investigating this further.


Some facts are -
My father's name - Ross Keith Pengilley
                 Born  - 3 January 1938
My father's sister's name - Ailsa ( Mary? ) Pengilley
                            Born  - 4 June 1940
Birth records could possibly be lodged at GOSH
(Great Ormond Street Hospital), in London.

My father was born with a hole in the heart,
being what is called a "Blue Baby",
and had to have a life saving injection into the heart,
which he still bears the large round scar of, today.
A nurse tending to him, called him "Dook",
which may be an accent on the word "Duck",
which became his nickname to this day.

My father, his sister and I, all have/had Autism and/or Dyslexia.
(My aunt has passed away from pancreatic cancer)

If any of the Yull-Stuart family happen to read this,
would these details fit with any family members that you know of ?


text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Relationship Terms #2

            So Mel,

            I would like us to sign our marriage certificate
            at the local Magistrates Court.

            I don't think we should have a reception
            until much later,
            when conditions are favourable.

            We can have our bases at various locations
            around the globe,
            including at Coogee.

But, I would like to travel with you,
and be with you,
when you are on trips of any substantial length of time.
This would include, when you are filming on location.
Short trips of a week or under,
may be too quick for me to cope with.

 
I could only travel with you overseas
if it was in your personal jet,
                                                         as I would develop blood clots
                                                         from sitting too long in a commercial aircraft.
                                                         In your aircraft, I could move around, and also,
                                                         we can tailor the trips to be able to take breaks
                                                         at designated stop-overs.
                                                         (As far as I know,
                                                         I still have the blood clot in my lower left leg)

                                                         As with any relationship,
                                                         there needs to be an understanding about sex and finance.

                                                         Sex
                                                         We need to understand that both of us,
                                                         can only do sexual things with each other,
                                                         and no-one else.

                                                         Finance
                                                         What we each own individually,
                                                         belongs to the individual.
                                                         What you earnt prior to the marriage,
                                                         belongs to you.
                                                         What cash I have prior to the marriage,
                                                         belongs to me.
                                                         After being married,
                                                         I will require a personal allowance.
                                                         This should start at $300 AUS, or equivalent, a week.
                                                         This is because, this is what I'm receiving now.
                                                         Any change to this amount can be made as we go along,
                                                         when we re-evaluate the situation, based on needs.
                                                         There also needs to be an allowance for household needs,
                                                         which I can evaluate with you, in situ.
                                                         What you earn after getting married belongs to you.
                                                         What I earn after getting married belongs to me.
                                                         I think it is very important to keep our finances separate.
                                                     
                                                         If Bruce doesn't like this, it is just tough for him.

                                                         I suppose that you will want
                                                         to draw up legal documents to support this,
                                                         which I'm willing to sign
                                                         (after reading them, of course).



(This message is intended for Mel Gibson,
the Actor/Director/Producer/Screenwriter/Television Executive)

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

A Question.......?

Mel,

Would you like to marry me ?

The emphasis here is on "like".

If so,
you would have to understand
that I am not Robyn,
and I don't do things
the way Robyn did them.

Sondra




(This message is intended for Mel Gibson,
the Actor/Director/Producer/Screenwriter/Television Executive)

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Film - "The Accountant" (2016)

Well, if Bruce Davey wants to tell everyone what he is doing,
through this film, "The Accountant",
then I'm not going to stop him.

But,
I won't help him,
and I won't facilitate his activities.
As much as I have the ability to do so.

The truth is,
Bruce has been siphoning money from Mel Gibson's company,
Icon Productions,
without Mel's knowledge,
and using it for criminal purposes,
since the beginning,
as the company accountant.


text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Mel's personal "Hacksaw Ridge"

(V)    Violence

(S)    Sexual references

What Desmond Doss did at Okinawa and on the battle field generally, is truly astounding.

It shows a spirit strong in faith, and also of mental and physical strength.

And he deserves this recognition.

So, why did Mel Gibson agree to make this film ?

Obviously, 

to promote the concept of facing violence from others, not with violence.

And to show that there is another way.

But, it does require an unshakeable faith (or in other words, "trust")

that the true God will keep you safe.

I support this concept and what Desmond Doss did, 

and Mel's promotion of this,

as I do not believe in cruelty.

So, what about Mel's personal feelings ?

Mel is coming from a place of deep grief.

He had a friend when he was about 12,

another boy about the same age.

This was at the time,

when our families would meet.

Bruce Davey,

his present business partner,

was also present,

but he was about 17.

Bruce took offence to Mel's friendship with this other boy,

and murdered this boy in front of Mel.

Mel grieved deeply, that he could not save his friend from Bruce,

and was deeply traumatised, and still is.

Bruce made Mel and I clean up this mess, literally.

(And people wonder why Mel and I are so stressed out)

Years later,

Mel was forced into the business situation with Bruce,

who continues to this day,

to hold this threat of violence over Mel,

and used it to sexually abuse him for many years,

and also take over control of Mel's company,

Icon Productions,

from his beginnings as the accountant.

So, you see, this is how it has been for us,

all this time.

Bruce is only allowing Mel to produce this faith based film,

because Bruce enjoys the violence.

Sad, but true.

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016 

Film - "Hacksaw Ridge"

So,
I went to the Members Premiere
of the film, "Hacksaw Ridge"
at the Ritz Cinema
here in Sydney (Australia)
last night.

I don't normally swear,
but in the early part of the battle scenes
I said, "Shit !"
And honestly, I don't know where that came from,
but, the action was coming suddenly,
creating surprise and shock,
and it was consistent.

I think this is why
Mel (Gibson)'s
directorial (and direction of editing) skills
are being highly acclaimed here.
Apart from the fact that overall,
                                                                   the film is well constructed,
                                                                   effectively sequencing action,
                                                                   and in particular, battle action,
                                                                   is very difficult.
                                                               

                                                                   (Yes, I am well aware
                                                                   that I look like a dork.
                                                                   It's my thing, I can't help it.
                                                                   I'm an accidental comedian
                                                                   on occasion)

(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Film - "Jack Reacher: Never Go Back"

No,
she wasn't his daughter,
but,
she could have been his cousin's daughter .......













text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

The 2 Mels

Mel,

I just want to pose this question,
for myself, and also for all those out there who might be interested,
but, I am very concerned about this practice of having a stand-in / photo double
to do all the promotional / public events for you.
I can understand why the industry employs such people,
as there is no way that you would have enough time
to actually do the film work,
and do all the promotional work as well.

But,

I think that your current stand-in / photo double,
is doing your reputation some serious harm.

I've just been comparing a snapshot
of you from the episode of the
Australian television program,
"Sunday Night",
that aired on
Sunday  16 Oct 2016,
with a snapshot
of your stand-in / photo double,
apparently from the
Australian Premiere of your film
"Hacksaw Ridge" held on
Sunday  16 Oct 2016,
and I can see where the rumours
that you are still drinking
are coming from.

As you can see here,
the snapshot of you
                                                                                   in the "Sunday Night" interview,
                                                                                   shows that you look quite healthy,
                                                                                   with pink skin.

But, the snapshot of your double,
shows that he has yellowish skin,
which is a sign of liver dysfunction         (which can be a symptom
of alcohol damage).
And, is he sporting red bloodshot,
tired eyes,
like he is hung over  ??

And I don't think it is the difference
in light conditions,
as I have been looking at quite a few
images of both of you,
and he consistently has this
yellowish / brown coloured skin.

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Dochas Books Film

The MRI #3

Colour MRI

So, how cool is this !!

I was taking photos of the images that are on my MRI,
which are bluish,
and then I put some of them on a "Word" document,
clicked on an image,
clicked on "Picture Tools - Format",
clicked on "Corrections",
sharpened the image under "Sharpen and Soften", and,
increased the brightness under "Brightness and Contrast".

Then I thought,
well, I wonder what will happen
if I go into "Artistic Effects",
which I did.
And I applied the last effect
to the image above,
which is a colour enhancement,
and look at what came to light !!

This is so interesting.

The greenish colour shows areas
that have been subjected to lower level physical stress,
and have been permanently altered as a result.

But, the orange colour clearly shows areas
that have been subjected to high physical stress,
and have been permanently altered as a result.

The smaller line of orange
at the back of my head,
shows the site of a head injury
that I was given deliberately by my father,
when I was less than  2  months old.
And the other orange areas
are most likely from
the horse accident that I had when I was  19  yrs old,
and would explain the high tension
that I still have in my neck,
having feared realistically, after the accident,
that my neck was nearly broken.
But then, there could be more head injuries,
than the  5  that I am already aware of
(which can be seen in the MRI)  !!


(c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Dochas Books Film

"Why I Love You"

"Why I Love You"

Rolling back the Mists of Time,

Reaching for that Paradigm,

Lost in History,

That's Mine.

Bringing it all back to Life,

So, wanting to be your wife,

Dealing with all,

That Strife.

Understood the Celtic Race,

Putting on the Celtic Face,

Blue on blue forbode,

The Mace.

Leading all to rise again,

Strength of purpose can atain,

Wiping out for good,

The Pain.

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

(This poem is meant for Mel Gibson,

the actor/director/film producer/

television executive/screenwriter)

Apology

Mel,

Firstly, I have to say,
that the pizza was delicious !!

And what a great long weekend !!
(Labour Day weekend, Australia)






But, I have to apologise for what I said to you,
when I was in Penrith.

I should not have taken my anger out on you,
and blamed you,
for the situation that I found myself in.

Firstly, it's not a good idea to get angry with anyone.

Secondly, the situation was not because of you,
I see that now.

I was upset, because I didn't understand,
why you weren't helping me.
But, I understand now.

So, I am sorry for treating you in that way.
:(


text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Very Low Tide

I don't know what low tide
looks like normally
(at Coogee Beach, Sydney, Australia),
but today at  1.30pm  AEST
(Australian Eastern Standard Time)
it looked a lot lower than usual.

A friend has also told me
that it's new moon,
at the moment.

So, maybe this is why.

The wind was also very strong,
and cool,
going out to sea,
                                                                                       such that the waves coming into the beach
                                                                                       were like a ripple.

                                                                                       The sea was so calm,
                                                                                       and the bottom of the sea
                                                                                       could be seen easily.
                                                                                       Making me feel that on days like this,
                                                                                       that I was in the Mediterranean !


(c) Katherine Stuart 2016                                                       

Relationship Terms

Mel,

I don't see why I can't come with you,
when you go overseas to film etc.

After all,
I am a writer,
and I can write anywhere.
I'm not tied down to any one place.

And,
I am interested in learning the practical side
of film production, etc.

But,
I won't go without,
                                                        Josie and the children being able to come with us,
                                                        and Shelley and Justin also having that option,
                                                        if they so desire.

                                                        Sondra                                  
                                                        (Katherine Stuart)                                                  

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Happy, and In Love

Mel

In love with you, I am,

In love with only you, I have been,

Since we first met.

I care not, who knows it !

(This message is intended
for Mel Gibson,
the actor/director/producer/
television executive/scriptwriter)

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Mel Gibson News

Mel,

Is this your ex-stand-in / photo double,
Girard Swan ?

Has the media not checked their facts,
and are following the wrong guy,
thinking that it's you ?

Because, I can tell that it's not you,
due to a number of technical
differences  :)

text (c) Katherine Stuart 2016

Dochas Books Film

"Anne's Game"

(S)      Sexual Themes

(V)      Violence

Anne's Game

On one such family gathering, when I was about  6,  and Mel was about  12,

Mel's mother Anne said to me,

"Let's go play a game with Mel."

I didn't like her,

but as a  6  year old, I had limited options., so I had to go with her.

I didn't know what she was going to do.

But, when she cut Mel's penis with a razor blade, in front of me,

I recoiled emotionally, but not sure if I recoiled physically, 

because I might have frozen to the spot where I was.

She knew what she was doing.

She was a master manipulator.

Now I understand what she was trying to achieve.

She was ensuring that Mel associated me, 

with the cruelty done to his most sensitive body part.

I had no part in it.

I loved Mel then, as I do now.

And I am against cruelty.

test (c) Katherine Stuart 2016